Run With Patience

Today, feeling more human than holy.  But so glad that I’ve learned over the years not to go with or rely on my feelings…the most real thing to us all…feelings.  Because feelings will lie to you, feelings change, feelings are subjective & flesh controlled, and have nothing to do with God’s truth.

I’ve been running this race with fire-blazed rockets.  But now I’m settling into a stride to endure…with a focus to finish the race.  Your prayers are much needed.  Make no mistake, NoLongerBarren, this is not doubt or give up time, just a different pace.  Some might even say it’s test time, the Teacher is quiet to allow me to apply what I’ve learned & measure where I’m at.  When you spend time at the feet of Jesus, in personal conversation, it’s hard when the conversation pauses…thus test time becomes a difficult time…as you yearn to hear from the One you’re in relationship with.

I’ve spent all this time encouraging myself & hoping that someone, anyone would glean from this as well.  Now it’s your turn…

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

Evidence

I received a word from God through my sister in Christ.  He said, the proof is in the evidence.  He’s not only going to give you proof, He’s going to give you evidence.  She said, I don’t know what you’ve been asking God for…but He told me to tell you that.

Yes, yes, yes!  I’ve been asking God for more manifestation.  I asked Him where are those people who the prophets spoke of, when is the baby coming…and His response is…here comes the evidence.

So what is the difference?  Proof is the act or process of showing that something is true; the weight, the power, the strength of EVIDENCE that compels acceptance by the mind that something is true.  Evidence is confirmation, sign, signal, substantiation…an outward, visible sign; something that furnishes PROOF; something which shows that something else exists or is true.

So while PROOF is the act or process, EVIDENCE is the confirmation.  And if my faith is the substance of things hoped for, the EVIDENCE of things not seen…imagine what God’s EVIDENCE is?  Glory!

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

Barrenness is a School?

I began reading the book Sing O’Barren by Sarah Morgan again. I saw some things that refreshed my view about this journey and some things that I didn’t quite notice the first time around. One was that “…BARRENNESS IS A SCHOOL OR A CLASS. It’s good we are barren at some time. It is good sometimes that we are not fruitful. Why? Because God will teach us profitable lessons in those seasons. In Psalm 119:71 David said, It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I might learn Your statutes.” (Sing O’Barren, p35).

Have we reached the point where we can thank God for the season of barrenness? I have truly, truly learned His statutes & profitable lessons in this time…and there’s still more for me to learn. Thank you, Lord.

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!
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Rivers Flow…

NoLongerBarren, I was asked to minister in dance at our couples retreat in July.  I would like to 1st ask for your prayers…prayers that I give Him & ONLY Him glory.  Prayers that I get it right, right heart attitude, right preparation…  I acknowledge this as an honor & a privilege to dance for Him.  I must admit, at 1st I was terrified…never danced by myself before (except in my living room).  But God has changed that emotion into excitement!

I am ministering to Rivers Flow by Marvin Sapp.  One day as my husband & I were in the car, I was listening to the song…getting it into my spirit & trying to download a worship dance from Heaven.  God began to speak to me.  He showed me that Jesus was not just at the well with the Samaritan woman to explain what true worship & worshipers are…but when He asked her for a drink, He was asking her for worship.  And when we worship God in spirit & in truth, it is like we quench His thirst!  Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Can you imagine how this revelation tore me up?  I could hardly contain myself, tears flowing.  He also whispered to me that without this Living Water, this Well of Worship, this life-giving Holy Spirit…MY DEAD WOMB COULD NOT BARE LIFE.  Whoa!  Can you say, shaking my head!

NoLongerBarren, there are keys & nuggets here for us to grasp onto…for us to chew on…digest…and take into our spirits for our growth & faith walk.  Something has got to make something stand up in us and JUST TRUST GOD.  I grabbed onto Him & took the leap.  I broke my silence, NoLongerBarren…this is the demonstration of my story.  My resolve now is…if I’m not worshiping Him [as a true worshiper], then I am not living.  But because He taught me how to worship (as I stated to God years ago that I did not want to imitate any body else’s worship), I AM LIVING & MY WOMB SHALL BARE LIFE, for His glory!

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I hope to further explain in another article how He gave more revelation about the birthing…Yes this is still relevant to our open wombs.

I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

A Different Phase of the Journey

NoLongerBarren, it’s been a while since we’ve met here.  Surprisingly, I seem to be going through a different phase since starting this journey of being No Longer Barren.  For so many months, it seemed that the Holy Spirit had begun speaking to me like a running faucet and the revelation of what God was manifesting flowed continuously.  So much so, that when I would sit and write, two & three articles would come from one sitting.  And I would have so much written ahead of time.  Now, I still hear the Holy Spirit, but this particular journey seems to be taking a different pace at this time…maybe a stride now compared to the sprint pace it was before.

So what’s different?  Before, it didn’t matter that the barren woman is silent because I was so on fire & exploding with revelation…that the silence affected nothing.  I would minister to myself just by writing.  Now, I notice the silence more.  I have to re-examine and make sure I didn’t quiet the Holy Spirit by being distracted or too busy.  Or JUST MAYBE this is a time of TRANSITION.  In the meantime, NoLongerBarren, this will be a free flow of conversation on a day to day basis.  I don’t know how this will go since the barren woman is silent…it takes two to have a conversation…or else it’s a monologue (LOL).  Nevertheless, I’m still here…waiting on the manifestation of the natural birthing.

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!