…Last night I had a dream where God was saying, “If you abide in Me…I will abide in you”, John 15:7. At the same time, something began to scream at me (the enemy). While God was speaking, the screams screeched louder. But, in the dream, I chose not to be distracted…not to receive the noise that was trying its best to speak over God. Trying to steal, kill, and destroy the word of God being spoken. I grabbed onto God’s word with understanding, comfort, & peace! I woke up and said, “I got it, Lord”.
The background, of what was being spoken in the dream, is that all weekend I had a lot of pain…due to large fibroids. On Sunday morning, the pain was great & crippling…to the point that I could not be comforted & I began to cry. I cried out to God and asked Him to help me. I touched my own belly & began to pray over myself. I continued for several minutes, but the pain was still present. I was frustrated with myself, believing that I was lacking somewhere & couldn’t get my prayer through…where was my patience & FAITH? I told God that I was sorry that I was lacking…that I was sure my prayer was hindered because of me not knowing how to tap into Him at that moment. I weeped harder! I went on & finished getting ready for church & on my way down the road, the pain subsided & was gone within another hour. It didn’t return, yet I kept nursing my belly…almost anticipating the pain to hit me suddenly & again. But it’s as if the Holy Spirit kept asking, “Why are you still nursing what God has healed?” And I would stop.
So, coming full circle…back to my weeping, desperate prayer & back to the dream, God spoke up in the calm…when I was not sooo distracted by pain…and this time…I heard Him…the answer is and always will be…John 15 “…If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.” GLORY!
Abide: to wait for; to endure without yielding; to bear patiently; to accept without objection; to continue in a place; to conform to.
I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!