Glad To Get Purged

There is another part to the dream I wrote about in the previous article.  I understood literally what God was saying to me in the dream.  But when I literally ABIDED, by actually getting into His word…spiritual REVELATION came quickly.  As I read John 15, it was as though God was speaking to me all over again, with a deeper & personally relevant understanding!

John 15: 1-7 I am the true vine, and my Father is the husbandman. Every branch in me that beareth not fruit he taketh away: and every branch that beareth fruit, he purgeth it, that it may bring forth more fruit. Now ye are clean through the word which I have spoken unto you. Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine; no more can ye, except ye abide in me. I am the vine, ye are the branches: He that abideth in me, and I in him, the same bringeth forth much fruit: for without me ye can do nothing. If a man abide not in me, he is cast forth as a branch, and is withered; and men gather them, and cast them into the fire, and they are burned. If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.

It’s as though I am being purged to bring forth fruit…to be made clean through the word spoken to me.  Just as the branch cannot bear fruit of itself, except it abide in the vine…neither can I bear this promise, accept I abide in Christ.  For without Him, I can do nothing!

I don’t believe that what I went through before this dream was random or coincidental.  I accept it as spiritually significant…a purging…part of the process.  How much more beautiful & worth it, NoLongerBarren, does it become to understand that God is purging me, preparing me for the healing, the promise & the birthing?!?  Our God is AMAZING, SOVEREIGN, OMNIPOTENT, PERFECT, RIGHTEOUS, MIGHTY, CONSUMING, RESTORING, COMFORTER, FREEING, VICTORIOUS, ALIVE…HOLY!

Purge:  to cause something to leave the body; to clear of guilt; to free from moral or ceremonial defilement; to cause evacuation from; to make free of something unwanted.

I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

Where Do You Abide?

…Last night I had a dream where God was saying, “If you abide in Me…I will abide in you”, John 15:7.  At the same time, something began to scream at me (the enemy).  While God was speaking, the screams screeched louder.  But, in the dream, I chose not to be distracted…not to receive the noise that was trying its best to speak over God.  Trying to steal, kill, and destroy the word of God being spoken.  I grabbed onto God’s word with understanding, comfort, & peace!  I woke up and said, “I got it, Lord”.

The background, of what was being spoken in the dream, is that all weekend I had a lot of pain…due to large fibroids.  On Sunday morning, the pain was great & crippling…to the point that I could not be comforted & I began to cry.  I cried out to God and asked Him to help me.  I touched my own belly & began to pray over myself.  I continued for several minutes, but the pain was still present.  I was frustrated with myself, believing that I was lacking somewhere & couldn’t get my prayer through…where was my patience & FAITH?  I told God that I was sorry that I was lacking…that I was sure my prayer was hindered because of me not knowing how to tap into Him at that moment.  I weeped harder!  I went on & finished getting ready for church & on my way down the road, the pain subsided & was gone within another hour.  It didn’t return, yet I kept nursing my belly…almost anticipating the pain to hit me suddenly & again.  But it’s as if the Holy Spirit kept asking, “Why are you still nursing what God has healed?”  And I would stop.

So, coming full circle…back to my weeping, desperate prayer & back to the dream, God spoke up in the calm…when I was not sooo distracted by pain…and this time…I heard Him…the answer is and always will be…John 15 “…If ye abide in me, and my words abide in you, ye shall ask what ye will, and it shall be done unto you.”   GLORY!

Abide:  to wait for; to endure without yielding; to bear patiently; to accept without objection; to continue in a place; to conform to.

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

 

Pleasing God!

Hello NoLongerBarren!  But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that cometh to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that DILIGENTLY seek Him.

Diligent – characterized by steady, earnest, and energetic effort.

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

Run With Patience

Today, feeling more human than holy.  But so glad that I’ve learned over the years not to go with or rely on my feelings…the most real thing to us all…feelings.  Because feelings will lie to you, feelings change, feelings are subjective & flesh controlled, and have nothing to do with God’s truth.

I’ve been running this race with fire-blazed rockets.  But now I’m settling into a stride to endure…with a focus to finish the race.  Your prayers are much needed.  Make no mistake, NoLongerBarren, this is not doubt or give up time, just a different pace.  Some might even say it’s test time, the Teacher is quiet to allow me to apply what I’ve learned & measure where I’m at.  When you spend time at the feet of Jesus, in personal conversation, it’s hard when the conversation pauses…thus test time becomes a difficult time…as you yearn to hear from the One you’re in relationship with.

I’ve spent all this time encouraging myself & hoping that someone, anyone would glean from this as well.  Now it’s your turn…

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

Evidence

I received a word from God through my sister in Christ.  He said, the proof is in the evidence.  He’s not only going to give you proof, He’s going to give you evidence.  She said, I don’t know what you’ve been asking God for…but He told me to tell you that.

Yes, yes, yes!  I’ve been asking God for more manifestation.  I asked Him where are those people who the prophets spoke of, when is the baby coming…and His response is…here comes the evidence.

So what is the difference?  Proof is the act or process of showing that something is true; the weight, the power, the strength of EVIDENCE that compels acceptance by the mind that something is true.  Evidence is confirmation, sign, signal, substantiation…an outward, visible sign; something that furnishes PROOF; something which shows that something else exists or is true.

So while PROOF is the act or process, EVIDENCE is the confirmation.  And if my faith is the substance of things hoped for, the EVIDENCE of things not seen…imagine what God’s EVIDENCE is?  Glory!

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

Barrenness is a School?

I began reading the book Sing O’Barren by Sarah Morgan again. I saw some things that refreshed my view about this journey and some things that I didn’t quite notice the first time around. One was that “…BARRENNESS IS A SCHOOL OR A CLASS. It’s good we are barren at some time. It is good sometimes that we are not fruitful. Why? Because God will teach us profitable lessons in those seasons. In Psalm 119:71 David said, It is good for me that I have been afflicted, that I might learn Your statutes.” (Sing O’Barren, p35).

Have we reached the point where we can thank God for the season of barrenness? I have truly, truly learned His statutes & profitable lessons in this time…and there’s still more for me to learn. Thank you, Lord.

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!
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Rivers Flow…

NoLongerBarren, I was asked to minister in dance at our couples retreat in July.  I would like to 1st ask for your prayers…prayers that I give Him & ONLY Him glory.  Prayers that I get it right, right heart attitude, right preparation…  I acknowledge this as an honor & a privilege to dance for Him.  I must admit, at 1st I was terrified…never danced by myself before (except in my living room).  But God has changed that emotion into excitement!

I am ministering to Rivers Flow by Marvin Sapp.  One day as my husband & I were in the car, I was listening to the song…getting it into my spirit & trying to download a worship dance from Heaven.  God began to speak to me.  He showed me that Jesus was not just at the well with the Samaritan woman to explain what true worship & worshipers are…but when He asked her for a drink, He was asking her for worship.  And when we worship God in spirit & in truth, it is like we quench His thirst!  Ahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Can you imagine how this revelation tore me up?  I could hardly contain myself, tears flowing.  He also whispered to me that without this Living Water, this Well of Worship, this life-giving Holy Spirit…MY DEAD WOMB COULD NOT BARE LIFE.  Whoa!  Can you say, shaking my head!

NoLongerBarren, there are keys & nuggets here for us to grasp onto…for us to chew on…digest…and take into our spirits for our growth & faith walk.  Something has got to make something stand up in us and JUST TRUST GOD.  I grabbed onto Him & took the leap.  I broke my silence, NoLongerBarren…this is the demonstration of my story.  My resolve now is…if I’m not worshiping Him [as a true worshiper], then I am not living.  But because He taught me how to worship (as I stated to God years ago that I did not want to imitate any body else’s worship), I AM LIVING & MY WOMB SHALL BARE LIFE, for His glory!

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I hope to further explain in another article how He gave more revelation about the birthing…Yes this is still relevant to our open wombs.

I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

A Different Phase of the Journey

NoLongerBarren, it’s been a while since we’ve met here.  Surprisingly, I seem to be going through a different phase since starting this journey of being No Longer Barren.  For so many months, it seemed that the Holy Spirit had begun speaking to me like a running faucet and the revelation of what God was manifesting flowed continuously.  So much so, that when I would sit and write, two & three articles would come from one sitting.  And I would have so much written ahead of time.  Now, I still hear the Holy Spirit, but this particular journey seems to be taking a different pace at this time…maybe a stride now compared to the sprint pace it was before.

So what’s different?  Before, it didn’t matter that the barren woman is silent because I was so on fire & exploding with revelation…that the silence affected nothing.  I would minister to myself just by writing.  Now, I notice the silence more.  I have to re-examine and make sure I didn’t quiet the Holy Spirit by being distracted or too busy.  Or JUST MAYBE this is a time of TRANSITION.  In the meantime, NoLongerBarren, this will be a free flow of conversation on a day to day basis.  I don’t know how this will go since the barren woman is silent…it takes two to have a conversation…or else it’s a monologue (LOL).  Nevertheless, I’m still here…waiting on the manifestation of the natural birthing.

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I choose to believe that I am going to bear a child from my own eggs, womb & husband, and I choose this because of the Voice of Truth!

A Short Delay!

Hello NoLongerBarren!

I didn’t post this week (and may not post until late next week) because my computer is down.  I am in the process of purchasing a new computer…so please be patient with me & I will be back & posting in no time.  I miss posting & ministering to myself as I write what God inspires within me…and I definitely miss sharing with you as you walk with me on this journey.  So let’s continue to pray together & I hope to be back with you shortly.

Be blessed!!!

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